To Want

I finally realise the Great Tragedy of want
(for it is not love, I know not of this love)

We hear tell of wanting

A hunger such that one cannot eat
I have felt it

A longing so great one cannot move
I have felt it

A desire to speak such that one cannot speak
I have felt it

Have felt, and fell still
This wanting

I hunger
Yet do not eat

I long for
Yet cannot move

I desire
Yet do not speak

For fear of wanting
My want
And yours

The acknowledgement of our want
The Tragedy of our want

It is all true

A moment

Look at me, Angel Eyes
For you are all i see

I would not live forever
Were it not for that moment

That one second
When your eyes met mine

And in the stopping of Space and Time
A thousand thought passed between us,
Few that i could hear

You are always happy

Even if your person isn't
Your eyes are still alight

It's a great tragedy when you're sad
When your eyes are not happy

Yet...they retain their beauty
Perhaps even moreso

There's a tear in my heart
As i reach for you

One moment is all
All that we need

I hear those thoughts better now
We need nothing more

I need nothing more
Than to hold you

Gaze into your Angel Eyes
For this one moment in Space and Time

(for you, my Angel Eyed friend)

Smokescreen

Many a time have i held you
And wanted you to kiss me

Many a time have i touched your hair
And wanted you to touch me

Many a time have i laughed in pain
And wanted you to want me

So we could hold, kiss and touch each other
Or sit still and laugh at pain

Formaldehyde (a song)

Infect a dying flesh
Pulse through veins of steel
Hunger for remission
Hunger for the rest

Scream my name at the gates
It's not the key but
We'll get you some notice
(of the cost)

Bleed it dry
Hear me cry
As i wait
Drowned and broken (by you)

Wait forever
Is it better?
Than to suffer this longing
Gripped by another

Would i rather die?
Than maintain the hope
Keep this facade
Of not wanting (of not wanting)

Bleed it dry
Hear me cry
As i remain
Drowned and broken (by my own undoing)

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Hehe, this one rocks!!!

Ponte del Cuore

All my lovers
And the lovers of my mind

I have found you
Who is one and the same

Or would be
Were it not for us

All of us
Not just you and I

A bridge is always bigger than imagined
This one's no exception

Prepared as we are to cross
Others stay behind

Ultimately we are left alone
A dangerous thought, not just for us lovers

Fear of Heights <=this one (hehehe, this is number13!!!)

I am thrown
Into the sky
Into your arms
And out of the nearest window

Fling me
So high
Send me to freefall

Excavate me stomach
Rid me of my last meal

As i wait
In the next corridor
for my turn

Is your execution over yet?

Bang the Doldrums

Best friends
Ex-friends to the end
Better off as lovers
And not the other way around
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Better off as lovers

How do we resist?

I could easily reach out and touch you
I could tell you
I could show you
How –

Yet I force myself onto another train,
Not yours

The ticket that I never use has your name on it.
So it shall hide, and remain unused.

i forgot what this meant...

Fold.

Fold again.

And again.

Will you ever stand?

Un-crease the fold?

Allow life?

So walk along.

Smell a rose.

Be.

Is this the last act in the play?

How will you end?

Break the shackles of existence?


Will you be free after that?